Merry Christmas







Ho! Ho! Ho! I wish you guys a joyous and blessed Christmas ! :) May your dream come true. (x

I was over her

Should I smile because you're my friend, or cry because that's all you'll ever be? I wish I was a little kid again because skinned knees are easier to heal then broken hearts. I'd like to believe that I'll wake up one morning and not miss her anymore. I'll finally understand that when she broke my heart it was for a reason, one I just don't understand yet, but when I do I'll know that she messed up and not me. I'm scared to fall in love, afraid to love so fast. Because every time I fall in love, it seems to never last.


  • If I had never met you, I wouldn't like you.
  • If I had never liked you, I would have never love you.
  • If I have never loved you, I'd never miss you.

But I did, I do and I will.

  • When I met you, I was afraid to like you.
  • When I liked you, I was afraid to love you.
  • When I loved you, I was afraid to lose you.

And now, that I lost you, I wish I never met you.

It's amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces.Well, growing up bites. Not all kisses are magic, and most girls don't live up to your expectations. But, there are times when even love, romance, relationships. It all fits together perfectly and it's incredible, and it's those moments.

I was over her, I promise, but then she looked at me and smiled, and I fell in love with her all over again. I could fill a thousands pages telling how I felt and still you would never understand. So now I leave without a sound, except my heart shattering as it hits the ground.Just once I want to fall in love and not have it hurt so bad in the end.

Memories are what you have, when you've lost everything else. Dreams are what you have, when you forget the memories. And bliss is what you have when you give up both.I'm hurting so bad inside, I wish you could see. I'm struggling to be someone that isn't even close to me.

I'm sad and depressed

Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry. I could go on with my day and act like everything is okay. But as my life goes on, it hurts more in every way. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know what I wanna see. My word use to be worth living for, and now it's hard enough just to be me. I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to be pain. I didn't want to admit it. It was easier to lie. Hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry.

Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand. There's nothing more depressing than having it all and still feeling sad. I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy. I'm going to laugh so you don't see me cry. And even if it kills, I'm going to smile.

I think I'd do better on my own, no friends, no fights but just me all alone. I'm tired of lying. I'm tired of crying. I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying. I just want a day to go by when I'm not pretending to be happy. Maybe if I wasn't so good at pretending to be happy, I might learn to actually be happy.

Why do I try not to cry? Sometimes, I think I could die. But when it comes out, I just want to shout, and scream and cry it all out. Behind this innocent smile of mine, lay words that go unsaid. Words of longing, love, anger and hate, all repeating inside my head.

I don't need a reason to kill myself , I need a reason not to. I could die at any moment, the tragedy is that I don't. But things can't be perfect all the time, that i know, sometimes we just have to let some things go. I think the easiest way to lose something is to want it too badly.

I Miss You



If there was one wish I could be granted here tonight, it would be to have you right back by my side. When the last teardrop falls, I'll still be holding on to all of our memories and all of what used to be.

Now it's time for me to find my happiness again but the emptiness from missing you will never,
ever end.


A shot of wiskey can't stop looking at the door. Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before. I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all. And i wonder if I ever cross your mind. For me, it happens all the time.

Sad Or Happy?



There's another lonely and silent night. Tonight I'm confuse because I don't know why do I feel sad even you forgived me. Last time I always hope that you'll accept my apology. And now I finally got it. But it seems like I'm still upset without any reason. I always tot the reason I sad was just because of you but it doesn't. Although I'm still sad, I'm also happy to be friend back with you. But now I'm totally downed. I feel like a strange feeling is haunting me all the time.


I really can't find out the reason but i guess i really fall for someone. I don't know why I so care about her. I went to her profile everyday all of a sudden. But it seems like she doesn't fall for me. Every of her sentence end up with a smiley. I know she doesn't mean it. It was a sarcasm afterall.
I hope that this feeling won't appear in the middle of the night again for the others day.

Why?



There's million of question running in my mind. I wonder why do these questions are in my mind. I just found out that the reason was just because of you.


why do I have to fall in love with you;
why do you leave me alone;
why do I cry for you once you left me alone;
why can't I face the fact;
why should we argue;
why should you exist in my world;
why can't I let you go;
why do I scold you;
why can't you accept my apology;
why do I still live in this world without you;
why do I have to continue suffering;
why do you fall in love with me;
WHY !! WHY !! WHY !!

A touching story

One of the most touching things I have ever read:

PLEASE READ.

"I was walking around in a Target store, when I saw a cashier hand this little boy some money back.

The boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years old.

The cashier said, "I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy this doll."

Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ''Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?''

The old lady replied: ''You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.''

Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look a round. She left quickly.

The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to.

"It's the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas. She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her."

I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her afterall, and not to worry.

But he replied to me sadly. "No, Santa Claus can't bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there."

His eyes were so sad while saying this. "My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.''

My heart nearly stopped.

The little boy looked up at me and said: "I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall."

Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me "I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won't

forget me. I love my mommy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister."

Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.

I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. "Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?''

"OK," he said, "I hope I do have enough." I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for

the doll and even some spare money.

The little boy said: "Thank you God for giving me enough money!"

Then he looked at me and added, "I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that

mommy could give it to my sister. He heard me!''

"I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.''

"My mommy loves white roses."

A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket.

I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind.

Then I remembered a local newspaper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl.

The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young woman had passed away.

I couldn't stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial.

She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest.

I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed forever.. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him. "

A Letter To My Lover

Another morning, another evening in which you walked through my dreams like you own them.

And perhaps you do.

And after I have woken up, put my clothes on, and walked downstairs to start the water for the coffee, your arms are still around me and your hands are still in my hair. The things you said to me, during the night, still ring in my head and heart. And I wonder, sometimes, if I turn around that you will be there, behind me. I could put my back to the counter and face you again. To see you, touch you, and kiss you.

But whenever I turn around, you're not there.

So much of my life today I owe to you. Do you remember the first time we made love?
This letter is a thank you. The seasons spent with you taught me more about myself than I had ever thought possible. Despite a lifetime of secrets and lies, I learned how to tell you the truth about anything and everything. And I learned that you wanted to hear it. Sometimes it was hard-it's not easy to always tell someone the truth, even at risk of hurting their feelings. But it was so important to me to do so, to tell you everything, to let you IN, that once I started telling you everything in my heart, head, and hands I never looked back.

Thank you for telling me all the secrets you had, for dusting out the cobwebs in your soul and taking a chance. Thank you for putting your hand in the small of my back as we crossed the street.Thank you for being the love of my life, my greatest passion, and my dearest friend. I miss you every day. And to be honest, I would give asolutely anything to have you back.

Sometimes, when my fantasies about having you show back up get to be too much, I have to put my head down and take deep breaths, because the ache I have from missing you is impossible to swallow over. The grief that we are not in each other's daily lives too great. When that feeling passes, I am able to just smile a bit and be glad that I have a love like you, a moment in time that is enough to keep me going for the rest of my life.

I will never regret Us.

I will always love you.

Always.

Love,
Jun Kit




















I Likes You
I Wanna Be With You Always I Miss You I Love You I Need You I Keeps Thinking About You You're Mine I Have To Admit That I Really In Love With You I Likes The Way You Are You're My Life You Coloured Me With Beautiful Rainbows' Colour I Will Keep Thinking About You Be Yourself Be In My World Without You , I'm Nothing

Regret

Really full of regrets right now. Why I've been so stupid all these time holding up till' now and the pain is much more deeper , only if I've told you this earlier , the pain might be lesson. I know that apologizing now is useless because I used to take all the blames and after thinking back on what I did , it just a totally of silliness. Now you just seems to be nothing but that makes me more worry about you. Not to beg for sympathy , but I will just keep on thinking and finishing the puzzle behalf on what's in your mind right now.



Or maybe I shouldn't have pop this silly topic out? After laying down on the sofa for a day and keep on thinking. Maybe I should just let this go and give myself a break. I don't know what I've been doing for the whole day , I was just laying down on the sofa , staring at my laptop , refreshing Facebook , moody-chatting , refreshing desktop and walk around the house but just have no idea what I'm waiting for.



Thanks for those who had chat with me today and sorry if I'm being such a boring person today.

My horoscope ( Sagitaurus )

The first thing one would observe about a Sagittarius is his/her amazing frankness and practicality. Generally people who call themselves practical tend to be polite in the more diplomatic sense, but for these guys, the practicality seems to stem from the frankness. Actually, if you cut open a Sagittarius (I mean psychologically), you’d find that what drives them most is their broad outlook, and their quick, positive grasping power of almost any kind of problem. But mind you, the one inclined to get the whole larger picture is liable to miss out on the minor details. They always thirst for challenges in life, and most of the time are restlessly looking for one. Another thing that makes them restless is the endless pursuit of something better. One moment, they might be completely happy with what they’ve got for themselves and the very next moment, they wish they could have had better.

Sagittarians are very caring and lively towards their loved ones, and have a great tendency of understanding their mistakes and learning from them. One very important thing the partner needs to understand here is that they love their freedom too much. Here the word freedom is used in a very different sense. The freedom does not refer to individuality or not wanting to change one’s way of life, it refers to the way in which a person wishes to express his/her love for his/her partner. And another aspect of this need for freedom is fear of closed spaces, in the psychological sense. Excessive possessiveness may take it’s toll on the Sagittarius.

Children of this sign happen to be a little prankish and need to be tamed. Otherwise, they are very brilliant and take their studies very seriously. The only thing is that at an early age, there should be a balance of studies and outdoor activities for proper development of the individual. The parents have the responsibility of ensuring this.

Horoscope

LOVE MATCHES & STRENGTHS and WEAKNESSES

Aries: March 21 – April 19 Symbol: Ram
An Aries is bold and impatient. You have a fiery nature which makes you simply irresistible and exciting. Impulsiveness and combativeness are also characteristic of an Aries and you are definitely the leader of the group, whether it’s in sports, business, or just among friends.

Perfect match: Leo, Sagittarius
Almost perfect: Gemini, Aquarius
Opposites attract: Virgo, Scorpio
Signs to learn from: Pisces, Taurus
Not your destiny: Cancer, Capricorn

Taurus: April 20 – May 20 Symbol: Bull
People can count on you even though sometimes you can be stubborn! You also have a love for good food, romance, and material goods…only the best of the best!

Perfect match: Virgo, Capricorn
Almost perfect: Cancer, Pisces
Opposites attract: Libra, Sagittarius
Signs to learn from: Aries, Gemini
Not your destiny: Leo, Aquarius

Gemini: May 21 – June 20 Symbol: Twins
You’re intelligent and love the idea of a having a lively conversation or debate. You are flexible, creative, and flirty. And because you are influenced by the twins, sometimes it feels like you’re split in two and don’t know what to do.

Perfect match: Libra, Aquarius
Almost perfect: Aries, Leo
Opposites attract: Scorpio, Capricorn
Signs to learn from: Taurus, Cancer
Not your destiny: Virgo, Pisces

Qualities that make you lucky are wittiness, brilliancy, cheery, and gay. Qualities that hinder your success are messy, happy-go-lucky, cruelty, and incompatible.

Cancer: June 21 – July 22 Symbol: Crab
This is the most emotional and intuitive sign of the zodiac. Your top priority is family. You are ruled by the moon and as such, your mood changes. When things get too much for you, you retreat into your protective shell. You do not like change.

Perfect match: Scorpio, Pisces
Almost perfect: Taurus, Virgo
Opposites attract: Sagittarius, Aquarius
Signs to learn from: Gemini, Leo
Not your destiny: Aries, Libra

Leo: July 23 – August 22 Symbol: Lion
You can be stubborn, impulsive, showy, and vain. You have a great demeanor about you and love to be the center of attention around those you love. You would make a great actor.

Perfect match: Aries, Sagittarius
Almost perfect: Gemini, Libra
Opposites attract: Capricorn, Pisces
Signs to learn from: Cancer, Virgo
Not your destiny: Scorpio, Taurus

Qualities that make you lucky are bighearted, forceful, aristocratic, and affectionate. Qualities that hinder your success are aggressiveness, boastful, haughty, and pride.

Virgo: August 23 – September 22 Symbol: Virgin
As a practical sign in the zodiac, you get a kick out of organizing things around you. You are always ready to help others.

Perfect match: Taurus, Capricorn
Almost perfect: Cancer, Scorpio
Opposites attract: Aries, Aquarius
Signs to learn from: Leo, Libra
Not your destiny: Gemini, Sagittarius

Libra: September 23 – October 22 Symbol: Scales
A romantic, a decision-maker but indecisive, the Libra is happiest when in love. Being alone is not an option; you like to be around people all the time.

Perfect match: Gemini, Aquarius
Almost perfect: Leo, Sagittarius
Opposites attract: Taurus, Pisces
Signs to learn from: Virgo, Scorpio
Not your destiny: Cancer, Capricorn

Scorpio: October 23 – November 21 Symbol: Scorpion
Very intense and emotional but you are very apt in hiding emotions from view. Very deep and mysterious, you look for emotional intimacy to satisfy. But when you get hurt, you don’t forgive very easily!

Perfect match: Cancer, Pisces
Almost perfect: Virgo, Capricorn
Opposites attract: Aries, Gemini
Signs to learn from: Libra, Sagittarius
Not your destiny: Leo, Aquarius

Sagittarius: November 22 – December 21 Symbol: Archer
You love to see and do new things; food, people, lands. You’re inquisitive and impulsive. You love change and will go wherever is necessary to find the answers you are searching for.

Perfect match: Aries, Leo
Almost perfect: Libra, Aquarius
Opposites attract: Taurus, Cancer
Signs to learn from: Scorpio, Capricorn
Not your destiny: Virgo, Pisces

Qualities that make you lucky are fearlessness, self-governing, sharpness, and gutsy. Qualities that hinder your success are aggressiveness, full of yourself, over-confidence, and contradictory.

Capricorn: December 22 – January 19 Symbol: Goat
Very determined and practical in all that you do. Career is very important and you are motivated by advancement and recognition in your field. You see no need to take risks and are very conservative.

Perfect match: Taurus, Virgo
Almost perfect: Scorpio, Pisces
Opposites attract: Gemini, Leo
Signs to learn from: Sagittarius, Aquarius
Not your destiny: Aries, Libra

Aquarius: January 20 – February 18 Symbol: Water Bearer
You need people around you even though you can sometimes be rebellious. Intelligent and interested in progressive thought. You have a plethora of friends but have a tendency to not get too intimate with any one person.

Perfect match: Gemini, Libra
Almost perfect: Aries, Sagittarius
Opposites attract: Cancer, Virgo
Signs to learn from: Capricorn, Pisces
Not your destiny: Taurus, Scorpio

Qualities that make you lucky are honesty, truthfulness, innovative, and insightful. Qualities that hinder your success are inconsistency, unusual, rebellious, and cautious.

Pisces: February 19 – March 20 Symbol: Fish
You look to your instincts instead of logic and facts. You are empathetic, intuitive and honest. You go with the flow and choose not to fight the current.

Perfect match: Cancer, Scorpio
Almost perfect: Taurus, Capricorn
Opposites attract: Leo, Libra
Signs to learn from: Aries, Aquarius
Not your destiny: Gemini, Sagittarius

hehe...

Wherever your heart is, that is where you'll find your treasure.

One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.

You're in love. That makes you actually kind of boring to people who aren't in love.

If you loved someone, you couldn’t let lies come between you. No matter what happened - even if you’d already lost each other forever - you owed each other the truth.

Katy Perry-Teenage Dream





You think I'm pretty
Without any make-up on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the puch line wrong
I know you get me
So I'll let my walls come down, down

Before you met
I was a wreck
But things were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You'll be my valentine, valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a floor out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

I might get your heart racing
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

Let you put your hands on me
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

Hehe...

Hehe....
Finally she forgive mi @@
She have given a weird reason for me y she ignore mi ==
Haha btw ima nt gonna tell the reason at here~~
==
Don't wanna post anithing d -.-""
Best frenz 4eva~~
xDDD

Sorry

Although the day we stay together is short...
I'm happi that i can met u...
But now...
I hav lost eu...
What can i do to make u stay with me...?
eventhough i dunno i did what wrong...
But i think i should say 'SORRY'
everytime we fite , i put my pride aside...
I always let u win juz to end those arguments..
I'll nvr wanna hurt u at all...
But den i reli dunno wht did i do...
that make u ignore me...
since the day u ignore me...
i realize that...
i should nt let u alone last time...
hope that u can reli see this post...
I juz hope that...
we can..
be...
friend...
thats all i wan...
HOPE THAT U'LL FORGIVE ME...

Feel regret...

Oh god...
This is the 2nd time that i heard from her...
she asked mi that can i be her bf...
The 1st time was last month i think...
I dint say anithing den she say i reject her...LOL?
Tdy she asked me the same question...
but b4 she asked me that she oso hav asked me a question..
Which is , she asked me do i luv her friend...
she asked me to choose from 1-10...
And i hav ntg to do so i joke to her and i say "10"
Oh god.!!!
I think i'll regret for saying that word.!!!
After i say the answer , she asked me can i be her bf...
LOL !
i say , "ummhh...."
den she say , "I noe ur answer is 'NO'
OMG !
I havent answer oso !!
I'm juz gonna say 'YES' la !!!!
She say that i hav say '10' for her friend juz now..
-.-?
now reli feel regret d for saying that '10' OMFG
Hope tmr she'll forgot...
All i want to is u must be happi everyday even u're nt my gf...
Don't Worry , Be Happy~