I was over her

Should I smile because you're my friend, or cry because that's all you'll ever be? I wish I was a little kid again because skinned knees are easier to heal then broken hearts. I'd like to believe that I'll wake up one morning and not miss her anymore. I'll finally understand that when she broke my heart it was for a reason, one I just don't understand yet, but when I do I'll know that she messed up and not me. I'm scared to fall in love, afraid to love so fast. Because every time I fall in love, it seems to never last.

• If I had never met you, I wouldn't like you.
• If I had never liked you, I would have never love you.
• If I have never loved you, I'd never miss you.

But I did, I do and I will.

• When I met you, I was afraid to like you.
• When I liked you, I was afraid to love you.
• When I loved you, I was afraid to lose you.

And now, that I lost you, I wish I never met you.

It's amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces.Well, growing up bites. Not all kisses are magic, and most girls don't live up to your expectations. But, there are times when even love, romance, relationships. It all fits together perfectly and it's incredible, and it's those moments.

I was over her, I promise, but then she looked at me and smiled, and I fell in love with her all over again. I could fill a thousands pages telling how I felt and still you would never understand. So now I leave without a sound, except my heart shattering as it hits the ground.Just once I want to fall in love and not have it hurt so bad in the end.

Memories are what you have, when you've lost everything else. Dreams are what you have, when you forget the memories. And bliss is what you have when you give up both.I'm hurting so bad inside, I wish you could see. I'm struggling to be someone that isn't even close to me.

I'm sad and depressed

Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry. I could go on with my day and act like everything is okay. But as my life goes on, it hurts more in every way. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know what I wanna see. My word use to be worth living for, and now it's hard enough just to be me. I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to be pain. I didn't want to admit it. It was easier to lie. Hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry.

Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand. There's nothing more depressing than having it all and still feeling sad. I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy. I'm going to laugh so you don't see me cry. And even if it kills, I'm going to smile.

I think I'd do better on my own, no friends, no fights but just me all alone. I'm tired of lying. I'm tired of crying. I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying. I just want a day to go by when I'm not pretending to be happy. Maybe if I wasn't so good at pretending to be happy, I might learn to actually be happy.

Why do I try not to cry? Sometimes, I think I could die. But when it comes out, I just want to shout, and scream and cry it all out. Behind this innocent smile of mine, lay words that go unsaid. Words of longing, love, anger and hate, all repeating inside my head.

I don't need a reason to kill myself , I need a reason not to. I could die at any moment, the tragedy is that I don't. But things can't be perfect all the time, that i know, sometimes we just have to let some things go. I think the easiest way to lose something is to want it too badly.